*heavy sigh*

[sam_gamgee]

Today was just one of those days. It started out good enough - but then again, they always do. Then the show that we had tonight just went downhill in some aspects, although it was pretty dang good in others. And, like, 99% of the stuff that I know went wrong wasn't my fault. And it doesn't help when Mindy, the stage manager, gets *that* tone in her voice when she wants to know what happened, since it makes me all the more stressed and stuff. I'm sure I'm being harder on myself than everyone else, but it doesn't help when it seems like most of the time I get the whole "what went wrong?" instead of "x, y, and z were really good, but what happened with aa?" I'm supposed to go in tomorrow morning and have a meeting with Rich (the sound designer/production manager and one of my bosses no matter how I look at it) to go over this stuff. I hope it goes well. I'm just so stressed out and numb at this point that I don't know how to feel or what to do to relieve some of this.

And it doesn't help that my butt/the backs of my upper thighs hurt, I have a headache, and the energy has been drained from my body. (The last time I felt even close to this was when I was sick - really, really sick.) Hopefully I'll feel better after some sleep.

On an upside - whoever thought of indoor plumbing and shower fixtures should get a medal or something. Getting a shower every night when I come home is one of the few things that has helped keep me sane. Also for God - I know that I wouldn't be able to survive - insane or not - if I wasn't able to pray and spend time in His Word. And a third thing - one of my friends has a post-it note on her door that says, "Evil does not wear a bonnet!" (not sure what the context is), but every time I walk by, I think of Mal from "Our Mrs. Reynolds" (I think) and it gives me a little smile.

Well, off to bed to see if my subconscious can get me at least partially sorted before I have to go in tomorrow. And I hope I made some sense to someone and if I didn't, I'm sorry. Please pray for me to survive the next few days at least. And I *so* can't wait to go home over 4th of July weekend (well, the 5th to the 7th).

And my mom got married today.

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Yeah, as far as I know I'm human - unless it's one of those big family secrets that everyone knows but me. :0P (Or maybe I'm like Doyle - it's not gonna manifest itself until I'm in my mid-20s or whatever.)

I agree that things with my mom are weird. But at least it does provide for some amusement when I tell one of my friends about the stuff she does. And I think that I really am okay with things, but thanks. :0)

Um, try sending it for Saturday, since I know that I'll be around then. But if it gets there earlier, someone might be. Depends on what time of day it gets there, I think. And I'm really curious at to what it is now, since it has melting potential.

Thanks. :0) Didn't have any Wesley dreams last night, but had a Giles/Ethan (sorta) dream night before last. :0)