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[sam_gamgee]

Well, last night's events put a damper on my Shore Leave squeeing - which was a bit of a positive, since it helped me focus today and not drive everyone (myself included) insane. I'm not sure how I'm going to be able to focus tomorrow.

When I woke up this morning, there was a note on my dresser from my dad apologizing for being rude last night and telling me that he loves me and thinks I'm a wonderful daughter and that he just wants me to be healthy and enjoy life.

And this evening, he gave me a hug and - while hugging me - apologized again for being rude and then said, "but...". Before he could get any further, I put a finger against his lips and told him to stop it - a few times.

Gah. I'm remembering all this stuff from this social deviance class I took way back when about labelling theory (in which people internalize labels they are given by society and start acting accordingly). And then there's also the whole mixed-signals thing with hugging me and trying to tell me something negative.

When I get back from Shore Leave, I'm going to start looking into improving things.

And I think I need to find a way to deal with the feeling that I'm touch deprived. I know that physical contact in general is an important thing for humans and I don't get it a lot. And considering that one of the few places I do get it from is my dad - I'm thinking it's not necessarily a completely positive thing with everything else that's been going on.

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[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

I think you are awesome, and I wish I lived close enough that we could make a weekly hug appointment! *Smooch*

[jackette.livejournal.com]

I keep meaning to tell you that a few of us from TF will be there too. I'm sure we'll run into each other at somepoint.

I'm hoping to post color copies of the TF flyer but I've got my b&w copies to put out to advertise TF. :)