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Mar. 10th, 2008 11:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sam_gamgeeGrr.
A little bit ago, my dad went into his "YOU NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT!!!!" rant.
I understand that he loves me and only wants what's best for me, but I have to say it - hasn't he realized yet that this tack isn't working? Since all he does, when he does say something is yell at me. Occasionally, he'll bring up, "you were doing so well when you went to the gym regularly." But he never said that to me when I was going to the gym regularly.
And I love that the implication is that I have to do something RIGHT. NOW. and it's like, "what the hell am I going to do at 10:30 at night?"
And he gets royally pissed off when I calmly say, "Okay, Dad" (which is my way of saying, "I'm listening and I hear what you're saying"). (He also gets pissed if I yell back, but minutely less so. Maybe one of these days I should let him have it.)
One of his things was that I have things every night of the week and therefore don't go to the gym. Okay, this is mostly true, but you should've heard him a few months ago when I wasn't as involved in things as I am now - he was complaining about that too.
Another was that my writing wasn't going to take me anywhere (and therefore it's not worth doing). Right now, I'm okay with it not taking me anywhere. It's a hobby I have that I enjoy doing and that, usually, helps me destress. (Though not tonight - I was already partially blocked when he started in on me and then it completely stopped up.)
I also love his double standard of saying that he needs to go to the gym to help himself lose weight (not that he has much to lose), but then never goes. I think he's been once in the past two months and I try my best to go at least once a week.
I'm just....grrr. And the fact that I can't write now is pushing up the frustration even more, because I wanted to write tonight.
*bangs head on desk and cries*
A little bit ago, my dad went into his "YOU NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT!!!!" rant.
I understand that he loves me and only wants what's best for me, but I have to say it - hasn't he realized yet that this tack isn't working? Since all he does, when he does say something is yell at me. Occasionally, he'll bring up, "you were doing so well when you went to the gym regularly." But he never said that to me when I was going to the gym regularly.
And I love that the implication is that I have to do something RIGHT. NOW. and it's like, "what the hell am I going to do at 10:30 at night?"
And he gets royally pissed off when I calmly say, "Okay, Dad" (which is my way of saying, "I'm listening and I hear what you're saying"). (He also gets pissed if I yell back, but minutely less so. Maybe one of these days I should let him have it.)
One of his things was that I have things every night of the week and therefore don't go to the gym. Okay, this is mostly true, but you should've heard him a few months ago when I wasn't as involved in things as I am now - he was complaining about that too.
Another was that my writing wasn't going to take me anywhere (and therefore it's not worth doing). Right now, I'm okay with it not taking me anywhere. It's a hobby I have that I enjoy doing and that, usually, helps me destress. (Though not tonight - I was already partially blocked when he started in on me and then it completely stopped up.)
I also love his double standard of saying that he needs to go to the gym to help himself lose weight (not that he has much to lose), but then never goes. I think he's been once in the past two months and I try my best to go at least once a week.
I'm just....grrr. And the fact that I can't write now is pushing up the frustration even more, because I wanted to write tonight.
*bangs head on desk and cries*
